Week Of Torture!!!

Alright!!! It's already the third week of school and i survive it!Yay!!! *claps* I'm so happy that i can survive this very hard week with no problem (except for incomplete homework). With all the things that's happening between my parents.My parents been married for 20 years now. They got married on Valentines Day. Isn't it romantic?! 4 years after they got married, i was born. YAY!! After all this years living under the same roof with my parents, i know what they like, what they don't like, but i never know how much is my dads salary. my parents never tells me but if the are forms to be filled, they would right RM 4000 >. This year, for some reason, has become a HUGE issue between them! My dad is such a crook! Suer i know that things are not getting any cheaper but do you need to starve us and yourself to death?!! Everyday, my youngest brother had to eat bread for dinner. Only BREAD!!! Every time i enter the car, my mum will start to say something about my brother had to eat bread (again) and starts to tear up. I mean i know my brother is fat but eating bread every dinner is not good! Having too much of a good thing is not good too. Because of this, my parents often fights at night. Since i go to tuition for almost everyday (excluding Saturday and Sunday), my mum have to send me since my dad works at KL. For two weeks my youngest brother and i had to listen to my parents shouting at each other and now it have affects me deeply. As i have written in one of my so-call poems, i am not strong at heart and very fragile. With all the ignoring, scolding, and pointing at each others fault, it had affecting my sleep at night. I can't sleep till 1 in the morning cause of the fighting haunts me so every time i close my eyes and tries to sleep. Not only that. Two of my best friend (LeeLee & JoJo) had told me once that i look much more miserable than last year day by day. I felt guilty towards my friends who had to cheer me up or try to make me smile a bit. I seriously want things to be better for me and my friends but i'm just too tired due to lack of sleep. LeeLee, JoJo, sorry for making you guys miserable due to my lack of interest. I promise that things will get better and i'll be the old crazy and hyper Dhani again! FIGHTING!!!

It's so hard to be an ICT student...Seriously! I can't get this ToolBook Assistant 2004! What am i suppose to do with it? It's been hours since i started searching the net bout it...Freaking teacher gave it to me so that i can "play" with it. Why do i want to "play" with it when i don't even know how to use this freaking application! This bloody thing is giving me a bloody headache! I've been searching for so long but i can't freaking find anything bout it in the net! I'm so bloody pissed off!!!

What do you love about me?
Is it my smile?
Is it my personality?
Is it my sensitivity?
Is it my hugs?
Is it my craziness?
I don't understand
I can't see what's so interesting about me
I'm not hot neither popular
I have the serious case of self low-esteem
I'm not strong at heart
I easily gets hurt
So can you tell me
What is it that you love so much about me...

Being unknown is my specialty,
Being alone is my specialty,
Feeling low is my specialty, 
Why is it all negative?
Isn't there anything positive about me?

There are times where you need to let go of something, 
And when that time comes,
You need to be strong and brave,
Because you know,
That where ever it go,
It'll be in good hands...