Hello world!! Oh my gosh! it's been so bloody long since the last time written in my blog! i have so many things to write but as always, i don't have the time to write it all in one go. so i'm gonna write the really big topics. when i say big, i mean HUGE!!! well, we all know that having brothers and being the only girl in the family is seriously hard, especially when you're the eldest. you see, as the eldest, what your younger siblings do and if it's bad, YOU have to be responsible with it, not your younger siblings. my brother,who is a year younger than i am, did a very Huge problem and so on. i'm not gonna elaborate on what my brother did but the main thing is what he had done taken a toll on me. because of his mistake, I've become the victim of both my parents critics. after what had happened to my brother, my parents keep pointing out my flaws and THIS is really sick! i'm so tired of it! i always wish i was dead. to tell you the truth, I've been thinking about suicide and trust me, i'm not kidding. I've tried swallowing lots of pills in one go to scaring myself. i know, it sounds sick but i did it anyway. i never told anyone bout it. i never thought about telling anyone. i know i'm depress but i have no idea to whom i can turn to. talking to my parents never really help me. anyway, i'm having difficulties to go online since this is my senior year of high school. fuck the school. i don't give a damn bout that bloody fucking school. i hope the school just crash and burn to ashes. my exam this week is to die for and i mean like literally to DIE for. so, here is a little reminder. if someone found me dead, you know why..
JOKING!!!!! =D
p/s the suicide thing, it's for real
